Ian,

Wednesday, July 1, 2009, 4:50 AM

We're sorry, the both of us.
I didn't expect how our departure would cause so much trouble.
And to cause so much stress to you all.
But you guys don't have to worry, we're.. fine.
We settled down in a hotel and we are, veryvery safe (:
Don't worry, all is fine...

I'm sorry, Daddy/KOR.
I know I'm wrong.
I'm glad that you understood how I felt, and you allowed me to leave.
I'm really lucky to have you, Daddy.
I feel encouraged by you.
You are my inspiration.
You are the greatest dad anyone could ever ask for.
The dad to protect and love your daughter so so much.
The dad to help her when she's sad.
And daddy, this daughter here, loves you just as much.
Imissyousomuch.AndI'msorry.

Amandalovee,
I'm sorry for the sudden departure.
I know, school is boring and stuff
but learn to cope with it (:
I'll be back.. soon.
I'll miss you sitting partner.

Weijieee,
Sorrylahbro.
I didn't tell you that I was gonna leave.
I'm sorry for letting you down...
I know, I simplest thing I could have done was to call before I left.
But I just couldn't.
You know how convincing your speeches can be.
I don't want to stay there anymore.
I know, I really would miss all the time we would make fun of.. him.
How you would kick him for me.
How you would protect me when no one can.
How you are just so kind.
Always there for me.
But don't worry, WJ, I will be back soon.
Imissyou.

Drew..
I'm sorry I left.
You said, "I love you" before I was gone.
I couldn't answer you.
That's why I need to clear my head a little.
I'll give you an answer..
I won't ask you to wait.
Because you don't have to wait for someone as stupid as me.
Its not worth it.
I'm sorry Drew..

And to _ _ _,
I'm sorry.
I know you've been very understanding to me and Tiffany.
You know, I'm not worth it. Really.
I know, its really wrong of me to just leave without a goodbye.
We never kept anything from each other, not even once.
And I'm just really sorry, I was the first one to break the promise.
I don't need your understanding..
Because I don't deserve it.
Not even a little bit.
I don't deserve you.
I don't even deserve a single attention.
Not even a single respect.
Not even a single word of concern.
Not even a simple smile.
I don't deserve you. Because I'm stupid.
Because I'm retarded.
Because I don't think well.
Because I'm ugly.
Because I'm just always not up to your standard.
I can never be.
Because I. Don't.Deserve. You.
So, I don't need your understanding.
I don't need your encouragement.
It's gonna feel different, but .. its for the best.
I'msorry,butidon'tknowhowtofaceyouanymore.