Sunday, June 21, 2009, 6:28 AM
I'm puzzled why my heart still longs for you.
Recalling the days when u stood by me, my mind goes into deep remorse...
For two people to share a common vision,
takes time,
determination and a lifetime of affinity.
I realised i have failed greatly on my duty..
To protect you. To be with you.
To simply make you feel my presence.
I remember the times when I was busy with basketball and couldn't make time for us.
You would spend the whole afternoon waiting for night to come, just so you could call me on the phone and talk to me.
I would then simply say that I'm tired and hang up.
It didn't mean anything to me.
But to you, I never realised how it great it meant.
I treated you like a habit.
I never noticed how much you meant to me until I lost you.
I never knew how the simple things you did for me felt so good after I lost you.
I never noticed that your presence could bring me so much.
I didn't realise that all you ever wanted was me.
And all I ever did was to push you away.
I remember everyday after school,
You would spend the whole time sitting outside my school for four hours just to wait for me.
I took it for granted.
I would then send you to the bus stop near your house and walk away.
I didn't even bother to send you to your doorstep after you had waited for me for so long.
All you wanted then was to just hold me and kiss me before I leave.
But I would just give an excuse and walk away and make it seem as if its okay to leave you there.
I thought it was okay.
Then, I started to get interested in going out with my guy friends.
When you called me out, I would just simply refuse you because I wanted something new.
I'm sorry.